January 21st, 2002. If I only had a brain.

Being in Japan has afforded me the opportunity to learn to enjoy my own company once again. It's been a long time since I have been alone like this, and it's hard to cope with sometimes. But, I've begun reading, writing and listening to music again. I've also picked up my old habits of talking to myself and over-analyzing everything needlessly. You have to take the good with the bad I suppose.

Countless hours I spend in mindful contemplation, looking out this window. It makes me laugh as I am reminded of the lyrics,

"I can while away the hours, conferring with the flowers,
Consulting with the rain.
In my head I'd be scratching, while my thoughts were busy hatching,
If I only had a brain."

So many things have changed since I arrived here, back in October. It seems like I have been here so long, yet it hasn't even been four months yet. Everything back home will be different when I return. I know this because I, myself, will be different. I just hope that I will still fit in.